I’m not allowed to have the MVA. We went to the scan at hospital on Wednesday and they said that I no longer meet their criteria, I think it may vary depending on trust. Even if I was eligible it’s not available at our hospital which I don’t understand.
They want me to go back Tuesday to confirm mmc because the baby measured between 6.8-7.3mm and 7mm is their cut off for saying I wouldn’t need a rescan - it’s just too close so since it’s their first scan (can’t take private into account) they have to offer a rescan before they let me talk to the doctor about our options.
I should be 10+3 today. We should be booking in and looking forward to the 12 week scan we have booked for the 19th, the day after my birthday. Some birthday that’s now going to be. Instead of talking about how to move our stuff around our bedroom to accommodate a new little one, we are discussing whether or not surgery is something we should do. It’s not like I haven’t been here before but twelve years ago it was a very straight forward miscarriage, it just happened. This is completely different. I’m finding myself wondering how I’m going to deal with it if I let it happen at home, and where to put the baby if I happen to not let it go down the loo. I know this happens all the time and I know it’s not unusual, you just don’t sit there and think you’re going to have to deal with that when you had no sign of anything wrong