*October Testing Thread*

[Alligator]

Oh no sugger I am so sorry to read this update so unfair. Life just doesn't make any sense sometimes!

Have you thought of taking time away from early testing? So much easier said than done of course. I know for myself I've tried to stop super early testing (like before 10-11dpo) myself. Those early positives are so soul crushing if they just turn to a chemical that didnt attach!!! I hate this for you, I'm sorry.

 

[Suggerhoney]

Oh no sugger I am so sorry to read this update so unfair. Life just doesn't make any sense sometimes!

Have you thought of taking time away from early testing? So much easier said than done of course. I know for myself I've tried to stop super early testing (like before 10-11dpo) myself. Those early positives are so soul crushing if they just turn to a chemical that didnt attach!!! I hate this for you, I'm sorry.

I don't think I will be testing anymore unless my AF is late.
My husband told me not to test early but I did.
The only thing is I'll still know I'm having chemicals even I do leave until AF because with all these chemicals I've had, the bleeding is so heavy and so painful and I get loads of clots.
So even if I do leave it I will still know if I've had another chemical.
I'm so broken right now I haven't stopped crying all day.
I'm absolutely in pieces.
I just feel its so unfair for this to happen to me 4 times. I just feel empty and such a failure.
I don't know I can get over it this time.
I thought with the other 3 maybe the doctor was right and it was just a run of bad luck.
But surely not 4 times it just feels so unfair and so cruel.
I don't feel like trying anymore because what's the point if all that's gonna happen is this.
I know time isn't on my side I'm nearly 41 now and we have been trying since February and all it's been is constant heartache.
I can't help thinking that there's something really wrong with either me or my DH.
I'm so depressed I'm so sad.
This is hurting me so much.
I am completely broken right now

 

[Deethehippy]

Sugger - you are not a failure! Who knows what is causing this but it's not in any way your fault..I don't want you to think like that.

 

[salamander91]

Aww sugger I'm so sorry

My friend recently had another miscarriage and epu told her to take 150mg aspirin, high dose iron and vit d next time.

 

[Suggerhoney]

Sugger - you are not a failure! Who knows what is causing this but it's not in any way your fault..I don't want you to think like that.

But there must be something wrong with me hon. Not hormonal but something must be wrong with my womb.
Other wise I wudnt be going through my 4th loss in a row.
There has to be something wrong with me or my husband otherwise this wudnt be happening.

I am 4 weeks pregnant and just waiting to bleed.
This has really really broken me this time.
I feel like getting all tests and thermometer and OPks and just binning the lot.

I don't know if I can carry on anymore

 

[babybears25]

I’m so sorry @Suggerhoney it really isn’t fair that this keeps happening to you x

 

[JJB2]

Im so sorry @Suggerhoney
Its not fair! Sending you hugs

 

[Mum42crazy]

Its all over ladies
Frer is negative today
Mite have to step away from here im absolutely smashed to pieces.

I’m so sorry

 

[Mum42crazy]

But there must be something wrong with me hon. Not hormonal but something must be wrong with my womb.
Other wise I wudnt be going through my 4th loss in a row.
There has to be something wrong with me or my husband otherwise this wudnt be happening.

I am 4 weeks pregnant and just waiting to bleed.
This has really really broken me this time.
I feel like getting all tests and thermometer and OPks and just binning the lot.

I don't know if I can carry on anymore

Sending you a massive hug!

 

[Alligator]

Sugger you aren’t a failure girl. You are doing all you can, taking all the meds, timing it well. We can’t control so much about this process! Our bodies are a bit mystery. But you aren’t a failure

 

[Bevziibubble]

@Suggerhoney you're not a failure at a hun. Thinking of you

 

[Suggerhoney]

Thank u ladies.
I've not slept hardly at all im so hurt.
But thanks for all the kind words.

 

[Bevziibubble]

 

[Suggerhoney]

My ibs has flared up and I have lower backache and cramps so will probably be bleeding soon.

 

[Bevziibubble]

 

[Hevalouaddict]

Af got me, I think I’m going to stop trying. It’s been 6 years now so I think there’s something wrong somewhere, but the doctors won’t help me. I’ll still come on and check and see how everyone is doing

 

[Deethehippy]

I'm so sorry Heva - is it worth trying the doctors again and keep pushing?

 

[babybears25]

Sorry @Suggerhoney & sorry @Hevalouaddict

 

[Alligator]

Ugh I’m sorry heva. So frustrating you’re not getting any help despite the long time trying. I wish doctors would listen to us!

sugger I’m so sorry you’re having a rough go, and struggling. This is so unfair so feel all you need to feel. We are here for you.

6doo and boobs quite sore/sensitive/weird feeling today. I would say more than any other cycle so I hope that means good things? Also had some weird dreams last night. I dreamt my dad had covid and wasn’t doing well. Then dreamt my husband was watching our daughter while I was on a business trip and he went to a spin class but wouldn’t tell me who watched her for him haha. I was so mad! So weird.

 

[Deethehippy]

I am 6DPO (maybe 5 according to FF) and although my boobs still hurt, I've been having dull crampy low back pain today which can occur for me upto a week before AF so not feeling very hopeful for this cycle. Also feel a bit headachy. Tested BFN.