Myshelsong
LTTTC Success Story
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I just want to give you a hug, but you are half a world away. So I hope you can feel the love.
It has been 6 weeks for me and I can honestly say the first three weeks I was drowning in grief. I couldn't feel anything unless it was sadness, I could barley put one foot in front of each other. I cried every day, some times hysterically sometimes just silent tears streaming down my face as I drive.
I just want to say that what you are feeling is 100% ok and normal. Not having answers is hard and sometimes too much to handle.
I don't have any answers for you with what happened, but you don't deserve this. None of us deserved this, this was the worst thing ever and there was nothing you could do. I know wrapping my head around the fact that I couldn't do anything, he was gone before we knew is the hardest thing. The guilt that I didn't know he was in trouble, that I didn't save him.... six weeks later, my rational mind has helped heal my guilt, but my heart is still broken. But I does get easier. There are bad days but there are good days coming as well. Just keep your chin above water in the mean time.
Good luck
It has been 6 weeks for me and I can honestly say the first three weeks I was drowning in grief. I couldn't feel anything unless it was sadness, I could barley put one foot in front of each other. I cried every day, some times hysterically sometimes just silent tears streaming down my face as I drive.
I just want to say that what you are feeling is 100% ok and normal. Not having answers is hard and sometimes too much to handle.
I don't have any answers for you with what happened, but you don't deserve this. None of us deserved this, this was the worst thing ever and there was nothing you could do. I know wrapping my head around the fact that I couldn't do anything, he was gone before we knew is the hardest thing. The guilt that I didn't know he was in trouble, that I didn't save him.... six weeks later, my rational mind has helped heal my guilt, but my heart is still broken. But I does get easier. There are bad days but there are good days coming as well. Just keep your chin above water in the mean time.
Good luck