Bittersweet
Complete(Boy/Girl)after losses and premature birth
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I know this sounds awful. Well to me. I’ve had such a journey for 12 years to become a mum lost a little girl at 13+6 and several early losses l. Then I stopped lived my life a bit went through some horrific relationships and then met my oh. we had our son 3 years ago not without complications and premature birth.
now we are blessed again with our second. So far on scans all is good. did submit to a Ramzi theory page and told boy.
honestly I’m gutted if it’s another boy. We won’t have anymore so it’s accepting this is my last pregnancy and mourning the loss of a girl. We don’t intend to find out I say it’s because we don’t mind but I think really it’s because if it’s a boy I don’t want the rest of my pregnancy to feel tainted so I’d rather just wait til birth when il be so relieved we had got that far anyway!
what can I do? I don’t want to feel this way
now we are blessed again with our second. So far on scans all is good. did submit to a Ramzi theory page and told boy.
honestly I’m gutted if it’s another boy. We won’t have anymore so it’s accepting this is my last pregnancy and mourning the loss of a girl. We don’t intend to find out I say it’s because we don’t mind but I think really it’s because if it’s a boy I don’t want the rest of my pregnancy to feel tainted so I’d rather just wait til birth when il be so relieved we had got that far anyway!
what can I do? I don’t want to feel this way