Manifest Destiny

In tradition with every bfp since I joined BNB, I have to post officially. I woke up this morning, and my stomach was beyond bloated. I assumed it was something that I ate last night (ordered Chili's to-go after a long two days of parent teacher conferences), and my stomach was killing me right before bed. But the more I grumbled and twisted and turned, I couldn't shape how the bloat looked so much like my pregnancy bloat. So I tested with a frer (because you know I always have a test laying around ). There was an infamous indent line that one minute looked pink and the next didn't. So I popped by the Walmart by work to grab some cheapies, but since they were out I got some cb early and some dollar tree because apparently there's a dollar tree right next to walmart. Dipped some opks (you know, for science LOL) and they clearly were negative. Just as I logged my ratios into premom, I look back at my two tests and see two faint but clearly pink lines on both. So naturally, I run to Target and buy a horde of tests. Hold it two hours. And all tests come back positive immediately. I'm scared s*less. I just had to call a lawyer to help with the SPED team for my son. I'm a single mom. I haven't told the guy yet, who is just a you know what kind of buddy that I've known all of 10 months after a month of dating went nowhere fast. I'm not equipped for this, but I already find myself smiling at my tests, planning to start clearing out the spare room, and breaking the cb digital that darned say not pregnant.

I just can't help but feel like this was meant to be.
I have always said that I wanted a second child, and that I didn't want kids after 32. I'll be 33 the month this one is due.
I had just told my friend that I actually would want another July baby if I did decide to use a donor next year. This baby is likely to be born in July.
I ovulated the same day as my son.
I got my bfp on nearly the same dpo.

I'm so scared. I told my family on Thanksgiving last time, and it BLEW UP. It'd be fun to do it again this year, but I think I want to wait and enjoy this guilt free for a while.

I need all the positive juju, money affirmations, and pink vibes LOL.

Tests


Betas
11dpo - 1:45pm - 47
13dpo - 12:45pm - 101 (42.6 hours to double)

Ultrasounds

Right?! I keep hearing how people show so much sooner.

I told him. He thanked me for telling him, said he wasn’t ready to have a kid, and then basically was in stunned silence til I said he should take some time to process the info. He doesn’t have any other kids. He’s married to his job. He’s definitely in shock though.

Thank you, Bev!

And yeah time will tell. He did say that he’s still processing everything, so maybe over time he can see himself stepping into a father role. I’ll fret about that another day.