Mental Health

I thought I was pulling through all right, now I'm not sure. Firstly, my normal job is in a nursery but while it was closed, the company that owns the place transferred staff to their care homes. I'm autistic and dealing with any changes in my routine and being around new people is hard. Insanely hard. (I had to go off sick on only my second day because the stress had brought on a killer migraine.) I have been in the home since March now, and even though my new routine is established and I'm comfortable with my duties and my coworkers/residents, it is still hard. Every few weeks or so, I have these weird "turns" as my mum calls them. At first, she thought it was my epilepsy playing up and planned to let my neurologist know in case of my pill dosage needed adjusting. But she's decided it's not that after all. I feel sick, emotional, panicky, and it's almost like a migraine but not quite if that makes sense. It happened again today, and I started feeling better as soon as my mum called in sick on my behalf. (I have a phobia of talking on the phone, oh joy!) I could easily have gone in no problemo, so now I just feel sick with guilt. The nursery reopened on Monday. My boss doesn't keep in touch as much as I think she should; I ended up not knowing the full story until I saw it on Facebook. Turns out she doesn't want all the staff returning at the same time, so I'm still in the home for the time being. That's fine, got no problem with that, but you could have told me earlier and not left me in the lurch!! And I'm sure this goes without saying, the longer I'm away from my already long distance boyfriend the harder it gets. I haven't seen him since before I went on holiday in the first week of March. 29th of Feb, to be exact. I'm not 100% sure he understands exactly how I feel or if he feels the same, I don't know how to describe it. It's like I don't feel at home without him, but he has his ways of perking me up. Funny memes, jokes, future events etc. But it never lasts. Today he set up a Twitch account so I can watch him play video games, which is part of our own little morning routine. I stay in bed, while he gets breakfast sorted then he plays his games while we eat. That will be something to look forward to, I've been trying to get him to play Spyro, one of my favourite games; he hasn't said he will, but he didn't say no. For now, I'm trying to look past the present and making plans, that has helped a little. I've been wanting a new tattoo for the few months and I have decided to move forward with it when tattoo shops are open. While I'm at work, I always have it at the back of my mind. Doing it for my steampunk pegasus ❤

I think you will be fine, you used the gel after. I have a friend who is an nurse working in hospital (she had the virus btw) and she gets quite mad when she sees people wearing gloves. She says since they cannot be washed or cleaned, all they do is spread microbes from one area to the next. Much better to regularily wash your hands and/or use the gel.

I don't wear gloves in shops now (though I too would if I had to handle cash a lot! In fact I have avoided any kind of cash since lockdown started!) cause I am more worried to pick up the virus with the gloves than with my frequently gelled hands!
I really think you did ok! You didn't touch your face before using the gel as you had a mask on, so the risk is probably less than had you worn gloves cause yeah as you said they give a false sense of security.

I hear you. I'm pregnant and seperating from my husband so things have been really hard. But have been lucky to have a small bubble of friends we've been seeing regularly all through lockdown. And finally things are lifting here in the uk. Although mandatory mask wearing in all shops from friday. Thankfully I'm exempt
I have my first midwife app tomorrow. Thankfully my mum is having the children.

How are you all?